2020.. An Unforgettable Year     

I wanted to tell everyone who has been waiting for updates on my blogs to please allow me a little additional time to get things up and rolling again..  I had originally hoped to restart my blogs in January 2021 but unfortunately as everyone knows COVID is still impacting every aspect of our lives ..

However I truly believe .. a small glimmer of light can now be seen at the end of the tunnel.. 

Just taking one day at a time..

Taking One Day At A Time

So my youngest daughter has now seemingly to have gotten past the worst of the virus.. She still of course has a difficult cough.. but I also was sad to see that she has also now started smoking again which will add to the length of her lung issues.. and yes I told her that.. but how does someone get their kids to listen once they are adults..

I am glad to see though that she put her foot down on her husband bringing his older daughter come over literally only a few days after her worst days with the virus.. I agreed with her this is part of the problem with the spread of the virus.. literally what he allows her to come and not only might that impact her health but equally his ex wife's household once she goes home...

We are in a lockdown status.. and I am continuing to be amazed that our President seems oblivious to the severity of this pandemic.. why are only a handful of states still not in lockdown status.. why does he tell in a press conference that the health professionals recommend everyone wear a mask if they go out to simply pic up groceries or medications.. yet he will not be wearing one.. and it is optional.. why is he talking to sports leagues assuring them that soon they will be allowed to have arenas filled.. why does he say the crap that he does in news conferences..

Why is he the leader of America.. all he does is show his stupidity daily .. I pray that all Americans are watching his stupidity and going to hold him accountable and vote him out.. he truly deserves to go down in history as the worst president in US history..

I would give anything to have my voice heard.. I have posted my views online and in emails to professionals.. in hopes that someone will hear my cries.. it is beyond me that this is the United States of America.. and yes we have the right to express our view points.. it makes me wonder why someone doesn't step up to the podium right after he speaks and look over at him and say .. what are you talking about ..  You as a leader should lead this country and never say that you will not be wearing a mask.. this is not the way to lead.. you also should not be pushing medications to americans.. you are not a healthcare professional and you do not get to do that.. just say it .. I know that surely they want to .. are they too scared to speak out against him.. and why .. don't they realize that if you hear something that is damaging and don't speak up to correct it.. you look stupid yourself.. for allowing his lack of common sense to go on..

God please help us.. is all I can say.. I don't have a vast array of schooling.. Im only a nurse who now has retired yet I have always felt that I have a good amount of common sense and clarity on many different subjects.. and I can see President Trump's downfalls almost the minute he opens his mouth.. who in the world doesn't see what I see..

enough said.. I am just ranting now.. and unfortunately nobody seems to be listening..

Taking One Day At A Time

So my youngest daughter has now become sick started just like mine in nasal issues and sore throat.. and now has dropped to her lungs..

I have been telling her my protocol ..that I did


1000 to 1500 mg of amoxicillin three times a day
100 torsemide taken as 50 mg twice daily
robitussin DM three times a day any expectorant containing cough medicine.. expectorant is the key to this
running a humidifier right up next to me at all times.. preferably in an upright position.. you definitely don't want your lungs to fill up so lying down is definitely not good.. until you get your fluid off your lungs and they start to clear..so you can breathe easier..
tessalon pearls helps with over coughing .. which just inflames the condition.. and can cause more inflammation
pushing fluids daily drink drink drink is also the key especially while taking the torsemide or lasix which are diuretics .. and cause you to pee off fluids.. which if your not taking in fluids can cause dehydration..
Benadryl helps with nasal issues and also calms you so you can rest more peacefully
Fluconazole 300 mg daily is a bacterial .. fungal medication.. and can help if the pneumonia has any fungal aspects.. took it in 150mg pills twice daily.. I felt it couldn't hurt.. and from what I could tell it was a good combination along with the amoxicillin..

and telling her to get into a hot bath will also open her up as necessary and relax her especially with the tightening of the lungs..

humidifier must be running 24/7 next to her and she must take these meds religiously..

I know her she will do what she wants.. and probably thinks I am harping but I think that the key to beating this virus is to combat it full on .. otherwise when it becomes a real problem it is too late.. and than it can be deadly..

I can only pray she listens.. after all I have beat it.. and even though I still cough every now and then .. im was up and about within approximately a week.. and really only two or three days of that was hard.. the rest was just mild issues.. but for me this could have definitely been deadly if I hadn't pushed the medications I did...

at least that is how I feel.. and after talking to the medical professionals I have I feel good about my protocol.. I used.. after all treating the symptoms early and combating the virus early is key

Taking One Day At A Time

Well I am sure everyone is aware of the coronavirus pandemic.. outbreak .. yes it is global and unfortunately I got it.. early on.. don't ask me how because I never go anywhere .. but here in nashville we had a tornado hit early in the morning on March 3rd.. which it all began march 2nd I was watching TV and our local channels all broke in to the primetime shows .. to say that tornado warnings had been issued to ky counties just above us but in our viewing area.. so many people were screaming bloody murder because none of the primetime shows were being shown and I honestly felt sorry for the news people trying to explain how they were doing their jobs because later in the evening storms would then be pushing through our area.. and it was their job to keep us all safe.. at around 1030 pm I went to sleep only to hear my dog going nuts with the storms passing early in the am.. I even took him out at 3 am.. still unknowing that tornados had just touched down at barely after midnight in east nashville and on a path that spanned several miles.. killing a lot of people.. and doing an enormous amount of damage.. from east to west nashville area.. in multiple counties..

my daughter called me about 5 am and told me about the tornado outbreak and literally how she didn't know if she was supposed to go to work.. we spoke and then she messaged her boss who told her to stay home until he could get an idea as to where the office stood.. she than later ended up being off a week due to damage in the area of town she works in .. and right after she returned to work.. the pandemic broke..

of course at first nobody knew how things in Tn were going to be affected.. but now we know..

at first my grandson had a small fever and stuffy nose nothing major.. or concerning other than he is an infant and of course keeping his nose clear is a concern.. I ran a humidifier on him and in less than a day I began to have a stuffy nose ..runny nose myself.. figured.. we had both caught something from my granddaughter as she was still in school at that time.. but within like a day time schools were beginning to close down.. and my daughter work had sent out the word she could work from home .. basically right when I had started to complain about a sore throat and that I felt whatever I had would eventually end up in my chest..

although I didn't run a fever persay .. or at least a high one.. I did have it advance into a lung issue lucky for me .. I have several years in healthcare and had started a medical protocol early on at the sign of my stuffy nose.. and sore throat .. taking

1000 to 1500 mg of amoxicillin three times a day
100 torsemide taken as 50 mg twice daily
robitussin DM three times a day any expectorant containing cough medicine.. expectorant is the key to this
running a humidifier right up next to me at all times.. preferably in an upright position.. you definitely don't want your lungs to fill up so lying down is definitely not good.. until you get your fluid off your lungs and they start to clear..so you can breathe easier..
tessalon pearls helps with over coughing .. which just inflames the condition.. and can cause more inflamation
pushing fluids daily drink drink drink is also the key especially while taking the torsemide or lasix which are diuretics .. and cause you to pee off fluids.. which if your not taking in fluids can cause dehydration..
Benadryl helps with nasal issues and also calms you so you can rest more peacefully
Fluconazole 300 mg daily is a bacterial .. fungal medication.. and can help if the pneumonia has any fungal aspects.. took it in 150mg pills twice daily.. I felt it couldn't hurt.. and from what I could tell it was a good combination along with the amoxicillin..

which is a lot trust me and all this on top of my normal heart meds and diabetes medications..

but I was not going to let this become pneumonia which is how most people die .. not being able to breathe..

and literally from within less than a week from the first sign of sickness I was able to breathe.. but luckily my daughter is now working from home .. granddaughter is out of school because of the virus and we are all coming to grips with the new reality of what are world is dealing with .. groceries are hard to come by .. because the stores cannot keep it stocked due to the massive hysteria the virus has caused and this is TN.. I can't imagine how hard it must be in areas where the pandemic has really hit hard.. but I know the stores are doing the best they can to keep food on the shelves.. as well as the hospitals and clinics.. to keep people well and test the everyone they can..

however I can honestly say if you can treat yourself like I did .. you can beat the virus.. you can stay ahead of it and not let it take you.. you just have to move .. sleep if you can upright.. cough run a humidifier.. do everything you can .. to keep it from getting to pneumonia..

I even ended up on the worst day taking 3 hot baths to open me up and keep me moving about .. I didn't just crawl into a ball and let my lungs fill.. and don't you..

fight .. just like any other disease or sickness fight move whatever it takes.. but stay ahead of it..

amen.. stay safe and stay away from others.. not everyone is so lucky out there

Taking One Day At A Time

Been sick .. still trying to keep losing weight.. started a new medication that has really helped me drop some weight.. which is good .. I am really sorry I haven't been blogging.. but I have been busy.. with medical appointments ... and my youngest daughter had my first grandson.. so adorable.. glad I am just the NANA.. since I really don't have the strength to handle kids anymore.. I am definitely too old.. but when I do see him I try my best I am mostly a "rocking chair " grandma..

I promise I will try and do better at blogging.. it just seems like all I want to do these days when I am not going to my doctor appointments ..is sleep.. I know what your thinking.. how hard can blogging be.. but its not that it is hard .. blogging is easy to do .. but finding the time is harder than you might think..


I promise I will do better.. bye for now.. 

Taking One Day At A Time

Yesterday was the day.. My first grandson was born Jacob he weighed 7 pounds 2 ounces and I think is 20 inches long.. haven't got to hold him as of yet.. been staying at home due to I am watching my granddaughter Jordy.. while mom is having her little brother..

yes I know I am probably a disappointment to everyone.. but it hasn't been easy.. doctors.. grandbaby .. medicine issues.. and now the year is fixing to roll over so there will be deductibles to meet on all my medical .. NOT FUN

but it is what it is.. I have to say this new insulin I have been on is killing my stomach.. I've lost weight but it has been more of just too sick to eat.. and the after eating issues are not pleasant either.. so basically it is a starvation diet on this new insulin..

I need to go get my refills from the pharmacy but today is awful.. Dec weather rainy.. sleet.. a little dusting of snow.. we are getting it all today.. not much snow more ice than anything I am going to try and post a pic of my new grandbaby.. he is a little bug right now.. just a snuggle bug

okay let me see if I can do this



 

Taking One Day At A Time

Hello yes it is me again.. I know I haven't been posting.. but I've been trying to write another book.. I have a few start-ups that I kinda lost interest in and my TV and movie review blog has also suffered lately but I am still actively working to get new reviews up..  My health of course still tends to slow me down.. but I am still kicking so I guess it could be worse..

My youngest daughter is expecting her second baby.. so that also has kept me busy..  but keep the faith I will be posting more soon.. and please you can find my first book on Amazon.. and keep reading my TV and Movie Reviews.. I will let you know as soon as my next book drops.. 

Taking One Day At A Time

I really need to apologize .. I keep thinking I will be able to post more than I do.. but unfortunately I either have been feeling horrible or simply too busy lately with doctor appointments to keep up with my blog..  so for that I offer my sincere apologies..

I've recently had some blood work come back with significant issues and have a follow-up appointment this Friday .. I am hoping I will know more after that.. I am also trying to add more vegetables to my diet in hopes that I can lower my glucose levels..

In all honesty though I really just need to start eating smarter..

More to come

Taking One Day At A Time

Well here I sit .. just been going to my doctor appointments and taking my medications .. Overall I feel the same as always.. but I think I am more depressed as ever considering I really have no contact with anyone..
Yes I know I need to get out of the house and make a friend..if not a couple of friends.... but how in the world would I do that with all my medical issues.. like anyone wants to be apart of my depressing life.. I feel like I would be a burden ..considering I can't walk much without getting exhausted .. and sometimes I have bathroom issues.. that make it necessary for me to just stay at home..
Lets face it I am not the person I want to be..  I feel as though I never will be like I was.. makes me extremely sad..considering I use to face everyday head on.. and be more active.. I just don't think I will ever be the person I once was.. again this makes me extremely sad..

Just Breathe

Taking One Day At A Time

So here I sit.. another day.. my daughter had to borrow my vehicle which is fine I really don't go anywhere anyway and this week has been a slow one anyway.. luckily.. So basically I've been just sitting all week.. watching TV..resting as much as possible and taking my medications....I've also been trying to catch up on my blogging.. mostly on my review site.. TV and Movies

Taking One Day At A Time

I know I haven't been on here .. but in truth a lot has been happening recently.. for one I haven't felt very good and I had a cardiac echo and some multiple doctor visits recently.. my medications have also been switched around..

Christopher came to see me which actually lifted my spirits.. I hadn't seen him for quite sometime.. so it was good having my son if only for a weekend.. and of course Jordy loved it.. she loves her Uncle Bubba..

Overall I have just been busy with doctors and family so I am hoping I will be able to write more now that most of that is over at least for the time being..

Here it is early early Tuesday morning now and I really need to go to sleep.. nothing changes!

Taking One Day At A Time

I am so sick of everything today .. I feel like after retiring I now spend my time handling more business on the phone about literally everything from medical... to banking issues ..

and to be honest its really quite sad how much people take advantage of senior citizens  .. after all in my opinion when you are still working .. people see seniors as still viable contributors to the overall status quo ( more experienced and knowledgeable ) and less like some kind of burden on the system.. 

but after you retire, go on disability or just are unemployed in general ..  people tend to see you as something less of a contributor ..  in fact they tend to NOT see you at all .. talking down to you as they though you really don't understand how things work .. and in some way having lost the ability to comprehend things as that of the working class majority..

and I will have to be honest being a second class citizen sucks..  much of what I am now feeling is truly disheartening.. after all I have literally paid my dues and I have only been retired from the work force for a little over a year.. (not by choice either) my health had markedly declined and so I chose to resign to take time to put myself first for a change.. 

Taking One Day At A Time

Well here I sit on a Saturday watching TV as usual .. reruns of law and order.. and scanning other channels.. to hopefully find something worthy of watching.. 

I was online earlier and I read some comments posted from a family member about how their life as a child included family court.. I have to admit it hurt .. don't know why I even read it after all I'm pretty sure I had seen the comments before and if I hadn't seen it .. I knew from other postings I had read a long time ago.. 

I admit my life was full of turmoil and at times a complete mess.. mostly brought on by my own mistakes however when it comes to family court with my ex husband ..  it was him always dragging me through the court system in order to hurt me ..

However I will carry the mistakes I made for the rest of my life.. and the choice I ultimately made in which I will forever regret .. will continue to leave me in pain

Now after all these years the choices I made still eat away at me..and in a way they are even more painful today since most of the time I am alone with just my thoughts and plenty of time to think about what might have been..

I just hope and pray someday things might be different..  but sometimes I feel as though I will continue to carry the hand I, myself.dealt ...  through eternity..

Taking One Day At A Time

Okay so here I sit again.. and I know I should be sleeping.. but I just cant get my mind to relax or my body .. chest pain.. high blood pressure .. mind racing.. just can't relax.. and yes I know I have medication that would force me into a deep sleep but Jordy is here.. and I don't want to be in a coma like sleep with her here.. after all it really isn't that long before she will want breakfast.. 

I will be okay not like I haven't done this before..

Anyway I was looking around and I have to be honest I need to clean.. just never really feel like it  really wish she was just a little older so she could really help me around here.. but her days are filled with watching YouTube and barbie  Such a cutie.. maybe I will live long enough to see her grow up.. at least that is what I pray for.. just let me live to see her grow up..

Taking One Day At A Time

Okay so tonight is not going so good..for one I am having a bout with chest pain.. no uncommon really especially her lately but I took my medication .. and to be honest I am not going to hospital unless I'm absolutely sure that I am in a life threatening cardiac event..

I'll write more later.. I have to go and lay down.. don't worry I just think it will ease if I can just put my feet up and try and relax ..so as to give my medication time to kick in..

write more later I promise

Taking One Day At A Time

Really happy to see my daughter and my two grandchildren from KY.. and my sister and her son came over  ..and although she really didn't bother me that much..   I think my daughters nerves were a little on edge.. but in all fairness the kids were running around and I think basically it was all just a little overwhelming ..  it was my first time seeing her new home, then there was the dog and the kids ..  Jordyn definitely was a little wired but loved playing with her cousins.. and then my mother showed up for a bit.. whew.. I, for one was totally exhausted..

I just felt like such a bother to my daughter's little family  .. wont be doing that anymore.. just too much action all the way around for me and for her.. I just want to stay at home with my dog in my   apartment and if people come see me than so be it..

Sometimes you just have to say you can't choose your family.. they are your family for whatever its worth.. and I love my daughter for just allowing me a chance to see and be apart of her lovely little family.. wish I could have stayed longer after all I miss being with her so much..

enough said ..  glad to be recovering today laying around and getting back to my regular routine and I definitely miss them already.. really wish I could see them more..

Taking One Day At A Time..

Pray for me today.. I have to go to see a different doctor who is filling in for my regular physician.. not particularly happy about that.. I feel so sick at my stomach these days.. so sick, stomach flipping, my legs are weak, hurting and my bones everywhere ache..

Dr appt is done.. now I am exhausted.. will write more later..

Taking One Day At A Time

Well here I am up late..just can't sleep ..it is so hard for me to turn my mind off.. so here I sit.. I know I was reading some of my work from years ago .. and yes I had high hopes for changing my life in some way where I would be at peace.. and yet it even today inner peace seems so unattainable..

Things I am not able to capture.. Sleep, Love, Happiness, and Peace..

and then you remind yourself to just BREATHE..

Taking One Day At A Time

I just saw Rocketman ..  an amazing musical biographical film about Elton John's life..
You can read my review on https://moviesandtvreviewsyoucantrust.blogspot.com

Rocketman 2019 - is a truly epic biographical musical fantasy film based on the life of musician Elton John.. and stars Taron Egerton as Elton John.. The movie follows John's early years as a prodigy at the Royal Academy of Music to his long standing musical partnership with Bernie Taupin.. The film is titled after Elton's 1972 song "Rocket Man"..  Elton John was born in 1947 as Reginald "Reggie" Dwight to his parents Sheila and Stanley..  Unfortunately the film shows the emotional detachment between him and his mother .. as well as his father who eventually abandons the family after Sheila has an affair.. Reggie who has been studying piano takes an interest in rock music and begins to perform in local pubs before joining a band.. I can't possibly explain how engrossing this film is.. as well as insightful, heart-breaking and gripping.. I loved it.. The film is a musical and highlights Elton's songs over the years as well as his troubles with addiction and finding love..  Simply an Amazing Film..and definitely worth watching.. Trailer

Taking One Day At A Time

Definitely a typical weekend.. just laying around watching TV.. Jordyn went home on Friday with her mom.. and now my weekend has been filled with getting some much needed sleep.. just can't rest comfortably when she is here.. mainly cause I can't get my mind to shut down..feel like I have to try and stay focused.... since I would just die if anything happened to her or if something was to happen to me and she had to witness it.. definitely wouldn't want to scare her or have to depend on her to call 911 ..

So I have just been playing catch up on my TV shows.. and sleeping ..Tomorrow I have a doctor appointment to go to.. so I will try and get my bath later so it will be easier to get myself ready tomorrow morning.. not to mention have to stop and get gas before heading out to my primary care appointment..

another note.. watched a TV show about the teenager who was kidnapped and then set free in Connecticut and people were saying that when describing the ordeal she was a matter of fact but than a psychologist said .. some people do that because they have to displace themselves from the ordeal in order to get past the horrific event.. I totally agree with that because it is so true..

also when watching the guy who is playing Elton John in the movie Rocketman in a movie interview.. he describes Elton John grew up with a mother who said she had wished she never had kids.. it was sad.. feel much love for Elton