Taking One Day At A Time

Sitting at home as usual .. today is Sunday .. Memorial Day weekend.. and its at times like this that I get emotional.. because I literally have nothing to do .. nobody to talk to ..and well to be honest its SAD.. I know what your thinking .. it is only that way because that's what I have resigned myself to being some kind of hermit.. and to some degree I get that.. Yes I have money.. and yes with one phone call I could have company (maybe) if I perhaps paid them.. but I have made a conscientious decision not to buy my friendships.. which let me first say is a step in the right direction.. and not the path I would have chosen not so long ago.. but at the age now.. that its not worth it.. after all buying someone to be my friend is counterproductive .. simply because that doesn't solve loneliness in any way shape or form.. of course I could also get off my butt and go somewhere but that again seems futile since nobody really wants to do things by themselves.. lets just say anyone know a good escort.. HA HA just kidding..