Taking One Day At A Time

Well today I am home .. just paying bills (ugh).. I did my budgeting from last year until now.. (well part of it..) and basically I spent more than I should but a lot of that was medical.. last year and then of course I have helped my kids and family..

However my new year resolution is still on track.. I just need to refrain from helping the way I have in the past..

I talked to my doctors and one doctor gave me a medication that he said should level out my moods but I can't get it filled.. it has a million side effects.. some of which could result in far more issues than what I already am dealing with.. Nope not going to do that

I have to say I just don't want to do this anymore.. I feel like I am being swallowed up by everything.. and unfairly at that.. life sucks.. I was asked the other day to describe how I feel and I said I feel like I am hanging off a ledge .. not like I am fixing to fall but instead that I just don't have it in me to climb up.. just stuck.. too tired from hanging on to climb up off the ledge and yet not in danger of falling because I still have a good footing.. just stuck

Hope that makes sense ..  God grant me the peace  the End