Taking One Day At A Time

I have to admit ever since my new physician made mention to me losing weight.. I have been even more depressed as ever .. after all it is not that I haven't done yo-yo diets.. even this blog was first started when I was on HCG injections to lose weight .. and I would do them again.. but all that happens with yo-yo diets is you starve yourself.. lose a little weight and than after you stop you eventually gain it back..

Now I will admit I have stayed somewhere in the middle since I my last weight loss.. I am definitely not as high in weight as I have been in the past.. at one time I was up to 225lbs .. morbidly obese for my height.. and now I am about 20 lbs less which is not much .. I have to admit.. give or take I am still morbidly obese for my 5 foot stature..  so when at my last appointment he alluded to the fact that he could get me to 150 lbs ..  I internalized it and felt hurt .. because he immediately saw an obese patient that has a million medical conditions and if could get me to a much healthier weight ..than yes some of my conditions would be helped significantly .. I get that..

Don't think that I am not aware of my situation .. my health would improve.. and I would feel better overall.. I have been in healthcare for a long time.. and I'm not stupid.. of course I realize that..

It is just the fact that in my opinion he would have to be a magician with some kind of magic wand to get me there.. that is like 50 to 60 lbs give or take on any given day.. and than I would of course have to maintain it.. and have even more sagging skin than I already do..

and yes I know I am making excuses.. and I am really not .. if he has a reasonable plan.. a pill, an injection.. a realistic diet plan.. I will try.. after all I have done them before.. I just can't afford any new fly by the seat of your pants shake thing ..

He said he would explain when I come back .. so I'm going to listen to it.. and try desperately hard to give it a shot .. as long as I can afford it.. after all the skinny person inside me says TRY... and be real with yourself .. you have always wanted to lose that kind of weight.. so TRY

The End..  :) wish me luck .. I will let you know what his suggestion is..