Taking One Day At A Time

So excited that its one day closer to seeing my daughter and grandkids.. and the first time in a long time since I have looked forward to something.. usually I am always a little sad to see another week go by without anything worthwhile in my life.. just the same ole doctor appointments and medication issues.. and today I actually feel pretty good after all I haven't seen them in such a long long time.. 

I still have some picking up to do.. in order for my medications to be put away from little hands.. and I need to put out some clean bed linens.. but other than that I just have to wait for them to get here..

Ive been watching TV and laying around as usual.. I know the kids maybe a little stand-off-ish.. at first after all they haven't seen me for over 2 years.. I once believed I would be able to see them more when I retired but since I had my heart thing .. my calendar has been full of appointments.. I should just make a plan to go see them.. otherwise I might have to wait another 2 years until I see them again.. and with my heart the way it is .. anything could happen.. and I might be gone..

God I would hate dying and not getting a chance to see them grow up .. at least a few more years
If you think about it I was 14 when my grandfather died and I remember how close I was to him.. it was devastating to me.. sometimes you think it might be better to go sooner so they don't remember and sometimes you pray to make it long enough to see them grow up and become young adults.. at least that is what I think most of us would choose..

Me I dunno.. I definitely don't want them to be as devastated as I was .. Jordyn always says she knows if I was to die she would cry but she would take care of Pepper (my dog) for me..so of course he wouldn't cry and be sad..

I just know still even at my age I wish I still miss my grandfather so much.. He was after all my best friend