Taking One Day At A Time

Today I watched the 2014 film Boyhood .. A review of the film will soon be listed on my Movie and TV review blog..

Unfortunately I was not really that impressed with the movie.. Simply because it isn't that gripping .. I just kept waiting to have something dramatic happen.. and other than some events that sadly reminded me of my own life.. it just dragged..

However one part of it definitely defines how I have felt for so long.. Patricia Arquette who plays the mom in the movie..  is reminiscing about her life and how she got married had kids.. got divorced.. got married .. got divorced .. got her career and her kids left one by one..and now what is next is her freakin funeral .. and how she somehow thought there would be more.. to her life.. something more.. Now mind you that is not word for word.. but in truth that is what I say to myself.. I got married had kids... got married again got divorced etc etc.. and what now after everything here I sit alone this isn't how at 20 years of age I pictured my life at 58 years .. I thought I'd have everything .. a white picket fence home.. full of love .. cooking cookies for my grandkids.. living with the love of my life.. sitting on a porch swing in the evenings.. loving life and smiling .. happy.. at peace  Well nope .. I have to agree with Arquette I thought there would be more.. and there isn't..  all I have left is my funeral.. 

Fu*$  Me .. Right?  The End